lithops
LF,
thank you.
7,599 / worthless.
half-destroyed and dead-eyed,
teeth red and white and sharp
and spitting up the blood of saints
leaving behind a holiness
you were never meant for,
ill-starred brick homes
and their collapsing ceilings,
and the remnants of boyhood
forgotten in its ruins;
splintered flesh stitched
together to feign wholeness,
the hollow melody of “broken”
unwavering.
the ever-present cauterization
of “never enough”
chewing through flesh,
the eternal maxim
of a heart’s collapse
for the burdensome coward:
“inferiority
is an inevitability,”
a life as
the dirt
on the floor
of a museum,
surrounded
by masterpieces.
phonoi
i dream of
fists hitting jaws,
knives between ribs,
the hollow crack
of a broken nose-
forehead to cartilage.
there is a calm
nestled in my chest,
at peace with it all:
a nature rooted
in pacifism
spoiled
with daydreams
of violence.