I leaned against my room wall with a lit cig in my mouth, i pulled in and then slowly released, my head was hurting, that usually meant the constant headache i've been having since i was five, had kicked in. I got up, went to the bathroom, took my pills, got them down with water and i looked in the mirror, the bags under my eyes were bigger and darker, my hazel eyes had dulled out, i was pale and although i just drank water, my lips were dry. I pushed back my black hair out of my face, i picked the cig back up and smoked it, i walked out the bathroom and dropped on my bed.

I got up an hour or two later, i had to prepare for school, i took a shower, came out and pulled on some clothes, as usual i was in all black, i pulled on my combat boots, i grabbed my phone, wallet, pack of cigs, bag and went downstaires. I walked into the kitchen and saw my dad, mom, sister's and brother, they all looked at me like i was dying, i ignored them, ate my breakfast and left.

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I got off my black harley motorcycle, and stood in the lot smoking for the next fifteen minutes. I finally went  inside and i could feel all eyes on me, i made it to my locker and tried my best to ignore the whispers, i was zoning out, when i felt a hand on my shoulder. It was Jack and Thompson, my only friends, they were different from the rest, they didn't look at me with worry, like they were afraid of me, or disgusted by me and they always hung out with me, even though they had other friends.

"Hey there Zayden, how's it going?"

"Same as always, i guesse, what about you guys?"

"The same."

We all laughed and headed to class, some days i ended up in different classes from them, but today we were all together, thank god, cause it was math. We sat in class the whole time making jokes, but halfway through my headache kicked in, i held my head and rsted in on the table, they both knew what that meant, Jack helped me up, while thompson asked for an excuse.

I sat in the washroom, while Tom rumaged through my bag for my extra set of pills, he finally found them, i drank it down and waited for the pain to subside. We waited till the bell rang and we went to our lockers, i leaned against mine feeling a little dizzy, but then it wore off, we went outside and i smoked till break was over.

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I went into my bathroom and took a shower, i came out drying my hair and a towel around my waist, my mom was sitting on the bed.

"Hey baby, how was your day?"

I rolled my eyes at her and went to my closet, i pulled out some clothes which of course were black, i walked to my bed, moved behind her and layed down. She looked at me with the same eyes she always had, i looked away, she rubbed my foot and left my room closing the door, i closed my aching eyes.

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I was running through a halway, i heard these awful animal screams coming behind me, as i ran faster, they got louder, they gained on me and the next thing i knew, i was on the ground. This horrible looking thing attacked me, i felt every hit, every scratch, i was screaming my lungs out, i was near death, but then i felt shaking, i heard my dad and mom.

"Baby wake up! please get up?!"

I jumped up screaming, my mom pulled me into her, i was shaking, sweating, my heart felt like it was coming out my chest, i grabbed onto my mom's t-shirt, she held me tighter, tears were running down my face.

About two hours later, i sat in my usual spot smoking a cig, my mom was sitting next to me, holding my still shaking hand.

"So was it the one from last night?"

"No, it was different," i rubbed my head and took a drag "but just like the other's, i could feel whatever it did to me, it really did hurt."

"I'm sorry, there's nothing i can do."

"It's not your -" my sentence was cut off by the sudden burst of pain.

I covered my ears but nothing happened, it just stayed there, i shut my eyes, i could feel someone holding me up against them, i was in a fetal position, my lips were pursed as my teeth chattered. Someone put there hand to my mouth, trying to force what felt like my pills in, i opened my mouth as much as i could, they went in followed by water, i few minutes passed, i opened my eyes to see my mom holding me and my dad just watching at me. He pulled me to my feet by my arm, led me to the bed and put me on it, although i didn't want them to, my eyes closed in.

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I woke up and looked at my phone, it was seven, i got up, took a shower, prepared, then went down to the kitchen, once again thoes looks were plastered on their faces, from worry, to sadness, to pity. Once again i ignored them, my mom handed me my plate.

"Are you feeling better?" i nodded, even though i felt like shit.

I gave her the empty pill containers "i need my prescription pills refilled."

Her worry grew "do you have any for today?!"

"Yeah, six" it lightened and i ate and left.

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I sat in my class, rubbing my tired eyes.

When is the last time i had a good night's rest?

Oh yeah, when i was five.

I got out of class and was walking with my head down, the light hurt more than usual, i walked into something and fell back on my ass, i looked up to see David, he didn't hate me and also didn't like me. He streched out his hand, i grasped it and he pulled me up to my feet while i held onto my bag, no bending down to pick up anything, i looked up at him, pity was plastered on his face.

"You ok man?"

"Yeah, no biggie."

"Okay" he walked away, with his friends behind him, all of whom i got varied looks from.

I stopped at my locker, put in my stuff and closed it, someone grabbed me, which scared the life out of me, i looked to see Jack and Tom.

"You ok man?"

"Yeah."

"Then let's eat."

We got in the cafeteria, and again it was like everyone was having a competion to see who could stare the longest, i ignored them, got my coke, burger, fries and two bags of chips. We walked to our seat's and ate, in the middle of lunch i pulled out my caffeine pills, took some and guzzled down my coke behind it, they both were trying their best not to stare. We finished our lunches and just sat there making jokes and laughing our asses off, i was mid laugh, when my head was engulfed with pain, one of them collected my bag. They found the small container where i was keeping my now two pills, i threw it in my mouth, Jack gave me his drink and i drank some of it, i put down the bottle and brushed my hair out of my face. I looked up, only to see everyone was silent and staring at something, me.

I gave the guys a signal and we left the cafeteria, we went to the parking lot, i pulled out a cig, lit it and took a drag.

"Aren't they used to me being like this by now? i mean can't they stop staring?"

"Sorry man, but no matter if they've seen it a billion times, they won't stop staring" I sat on the ground.

I finished my cig and went in class after the bell had rang, ever since i was a kid i never got in trouble with anyone. Ms. Holy probably thought it was another headache, so i walked in, took my seat, i always had a particular one for each class which no one dared to sit in, i sat down and rested my head on the desk, the class continued.