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    Contents

Book One: The Past, The Present, The Future  and Squaring Up

Book Two: Acceptance

Book Three: Forgiveness

Book Four: Taking it to the World

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Unit 1 

Months 1, 2, & 3

Month 1 - Inventory

Intro: List of feelings; circle the ones you have experienced or are experiencing now.

Week 1 - How Did I Get Here?

day 1 - Their Choices

day 2 - My Choices

day 3 -  How do I feel About the Choices I Made?

(use feelings inventory sheet)

day 4 - How Do I Feel About the Future?

day 5 - How Does God Feel?

Week 2 - What Do I Do Now?

day 1 - With Whom Am I Still Angry?

day 2 - How Angry Am I At Myself?

day 3 - What Is Forgiveness?

day 4 - Why Do I Have To Forgive?

day 5 - Release Everyone That Hurt Me

Week 3 - How Do I Hear From God? Intro: Dreams, Visions, Audibly, Through others' Words

day 1 - Dreams and Visions

day 2 - Impressions

day 3 - Audibly Through prophecy and Personal Words

day 4 - The Bible

day 5 The Holy Spirit

Week 4 - How Do I Know It's God?

day 1 - Soaking

day 2 - Be Still, Ask, Listen, Journal

day 3 - Music/Songs

day 4 - Green, Yellow, and Red Flags …... Gut Feelings

day 5 - Bible Verses: His Sheep Hear His Voice; 

               The Holy Spirit Convicts the World 

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Month 2  - Confidence

Week 1 - What is Confidence?

day 1 - Full of Conviction: Certain

day 2 - Having or Showing Assurance and Self Reliance

day 3 - Synonyms: assured, secure, self-asserting, self-         confident  

day 4 - From Where Does my confidence come?

day 5 - I define confidence, for me, as …....

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Foreward

Foreward

 I was raised in an abusive home and moved out at the age of eighteen ready to go do it differently. I was going to create a loving, healthy and giving family. That is not what happened though. What happened was that the then I went on to create my own family which became an abusive household also. 

My shock and dismay at the environment in which my children grew up in and what my family became was devastating to me. I was disheartened, angry and ready to end it all. I had believed in God since my days as a Catholic School girl but was ready to give up on God. I was ready to give up on people, family, society as a whole and yes …. I was fixin' to tell the world there was no God in Heaven and if there were …. That I wanted no part of Him, His Son or any of His children.

Through a number of circumstances, some life altering and frightening and some life altering and positive, I came to the end of my rope. I truly did! There is no other, or better way of sayin' it!  I WAS FINISHED!!! I was Ready to Check out !!!!!

Then a day came, God stepped in and altered the course of my life.

Healing was at hand. The release and freedom I prayed for, cried for, begged for and so desperately needed, was at hand and my life would forever and inalterably be changed for the better. 

The road for me, as for many "victims", was not easy, though it was definitely worthwhile and the experience did in fact turn out to be a journey of a life time. There were many people who came into my life and impacted it. Some for the better and some for the lesson of learning who people are and ultimately this is what taught me who I am. Now. Here, today.

There were many long and sleepless nights of the soul. There was questioning, crying, railing and letting go. The experience has taught me how to forgive and why to do it. I even got to the place where I have forgiven myself.

The reason I have taken pen to paper and shared what I have learned is that I discovered many things while dealing with the Police, The Court System and D.A.'s. I found that the system feeds itself and that victim's of Domestic Violence are often treated poorly and re-victimized as they try to have their abuser brought to justice.

I found that if you want to change your life, be truly healed and walk in sun and smiles again, a victim, on their way to Overcoming, has to be active and advocate for themselves, and/or have someone they trust walk the road with them. 

The system is not invested in your healing. They are set up for other things and perhaps that is how it should be. Society in general is not invested in truly understanding or helping to change things for the women and children who have survived, gotten out and want a better and more fulfilling and peaceful life. 

Someday I believe that will change and help, true help will be available readily and easily.

 Until then though it is incumbent for those of us who have been a "victim" and survived and then overcome to share what we have learned, listen to each other and support healing.

I envision a place … Laurel House ….. a place of true healing and change. Until then, I continue to share, write, learn and grow and as always …. Thank God for my life and His gracious love and the opportunity He walked me through to be healthy and whole and free from terror and fear and a loved daughter of the Most High King.

Laurel Ann