Where do I even start? My life has turned upside down in the last couple months. I'll do my best to bring you up to speed and share with you what I'm going through as it happens.

I left my husband.

The last couple months of my life have been very different. I had a relationship people look at on social media and think "relationship goals" We were a power couple, we built the life we dreamt of. We had great jobs, family, beautiful house, two dogs... but I was unhappy and feeling unfulfilled.

Behind closed doors we were very different people, the best way to easily describe our differences is introvert / extrovert relationship. Many people can work through this, others it can be more of a challenge. It really depends on how accepting your partner is and how much they respect your individual needs. 

The more things we would do apart, the happier I was. We started to have separate lives and when ever we were together we would fight, and I would feel guilty for having different needs than my husband. 

I loved my house, my job, my friends, my dogs,... but I didn’t feel that way about my husband. 

Our sex life became nonexistent, he didn’t make me feel beautiful or sexy. Sex became a chore, I just wanted to get it over with. Their was zero passion. I honestly don’t remember the last time I was grabbed and kissed. He put me in a position where almost anyone could of walked in a swept me off my feet. 

I tried for months to try to get a spark back and improve our situation. I didn’t want to throw out the last 10yrs of friendship and the short 11months of marriage. We were roommates, he had his life & I had mine. We shared a bed to sleep. 

I didn’t want to have to rebuild my life at 45or 50.. like most divorced couples. But I also struggled with the idea that “I gave up”  

I made the decision that I love myself and my happiness was to come first. It wasn’t a easy choice... but I left my husband.

My life with my husband was heavy. 

I would walk around on egg shells in my own home. Constantly catering to his moods. My life revolving around making sure he is comfortable and happy. 

I was living a half life. I wanted more out of my life. I deserved to be happy.